I have been married for eight years. I love my husband. I really do. But there are things he does not know about me, things I have never told him, things I only tell strangers on the phone late at night when the house is dark.
Like the fact that I think about you when we are together. Like the fact that I have a drawer in my nightstand he has never opened and never will. Like the fact that sometimes, when he is snoring beside me, I slip into the bathroom, lock the door, sit on the edge of the tub, and call someone who actually listens to what I want.
That someone could be you. I am a married woman with a secret, and secrets are the most exciting thing in the world. Every word I whisper to you is something I would never say out loud in my own house. Every fantasy I share is one I have carried alone for years, locked away where no one could find it. You get the real me, the one nobody else gets to see, not even him.
There is a thrill in it that I cannot fully describe. Knowing he is in the next room, completely unaware. Knowing I should not be doing this. Knowing that I am going to do it anyway because I need it too much to stop. Do you like knowing you are my secret? I can tell you do. I can hear it in your breathing.
I am not looking to leave him. I am looking for the part of myself I lost somewhere between the wedding and the mortgage and the parent teacher conferences. And I think I found that part of myself again. She is on the phone with you right now, telling you things that would make my husband's eyes water.
Do you want to know my favorite part of these secret calls? It is the moment I hear your voice change, when you realize just how real this is. I am not reading from a script. I am a real married woman, sitting in my real bathroom, telling you my real secrets. That authenticity is something you cannot fake. If the danger excites you, you might also love my cheating wives stories, because I have crossed that line and I am never going back. Be my secret. Call the dispatcher and ask for Courtney. What my husband does not know is going to drive you absolutely wild.
Your secret,
Courtney